My day with Andy was probably the simplest but the sweetest date ever!

At first I was kind of disappointed because I took the WHOLE day off so I can drive down to where he is and spend most of the day with him but we ended up hanging out at the end of the day, around 6pm. Then as I was driving I kinda got lost, damn you mapquest. I don’t even know why I still rely on that damn thing. It’s the most annoying source of direction ever.

So I pulled up to a street and I saw his car with his hazard lights on waiting for me to follow him to the place where we were getting dinner. I was on the phone with him and my heart never pumped that fast before. The feeling was surreal; I couldn’t believe that the guy I have been holding on to for 2 years was driving right infront of me and in just a few minutes, I’d be able to touch him in flesh.

I pulled up in the parking lot and walked immediately towards him next to his car. I gave him a peck on his hmm.. I honestly can’t remember if it was on his cheek or lips, maybe in between. And then gave him a hug. I had my arms wrapped around him for maybe over 5 minutes. It felt soooo great. Then I moved away to look him in the eyes. I so wanted to say how much I love him and how happy I am that we finally met in person but I didn’t do it.

He then opened his car to let Ice (his white german shepherd) out so I could pet him and stuff. While I was playing around with Ice, I looked up to him and there he was holding a HUGE boquet of flowers! It was the sweetest thing everrrrrr. I then reached into my purse to get the small stuffed toy unicorn that he asked me to get him for Chistmas last year. It was pretty cool.

We then went to get dinner, then gelati which was next door. Then went to the park/walk trail to walk Ice. We probably walked about 3 miles to and back to the park. We never held hands, kissed, or anything like that while walking. We were just… talking. It felt so great and I didn’t want the whole thing to end.

Then I had to go home already because it was getting late and dark and my eyes are bad at night, I still had to drive 40 minutes to get home. So back to the parking lot where I left my car, I gave him another peck on.. wherever it was (LOL). A hug. He pulled away, looked me in my eyes and asked “Can I?” I just said YES and we kissed. It was the sweetest kiss ever! Everything felt like it was in slow motion!!! After we kissed he told me he loves me and I said I love him back. Then another loooong hug. We didn’t want to let go of each other; I didn’t want to let go.

I am seeing him again tomorrow and I am taking him to one of my friend’s daughter’s birthday party. But with this whole love story thing, it’s not all about happiness. I have been feeling crappy too. And I think it’s something that I don’t want to share with everybody on the WWW. What Andy and I have is pretty serious. And when I get serious with something/someone, I like my space.

Why can’t tomorrow be NOW?

I waited for this day for 2 long years. Finally, Andy and I agreed to meet each other.

It was his birthday last week, and I thought it was today and I had told him I was planning on sending him something. He said, “Tuesday’s my day off from work, why don’t you take a day off from work too and spend the day with me?” It was probably the sweetest words he ever spoke, well other than the I love yous he tells me.

It’s not all excitement I feel though, I am pretty nervous that maybe once he sees me in person he won’t like me. Or maybe the other way around. It’s driving me nuts. It feels good at the same time because I have butterflies in my tummy and such. *sigh* …

So this is it you guys, in a couple of hours I will be seeing the man that I have been crazy for for the past 2 years. It’s insane I tell you!

*Sarah, this is ittttt! Finally!!! Haha, wish me luck darlin!

I am finally back with a new layout. Nothing’s really new with the whole website. I am going to disable the links on my navigation because they are really really out-dated. I am working on them right now and hopefully get it done sooner than later.

I feel like I have been gone forever, and really I think it’s been forever! I haven’t posted a real post in awhile.

So let me update you with my so-called “life.” Last week I was working overtime all week because my super-smart boss let 3 people take a week off of work! Nice huh? Yeah, well it wasn’t that bad because we had “floating” people aroung anyways. It was cool all in all. But it did feel like the week wasn’t going to be over. It was a drag I tell you!

I am sure you guys know/remember Andy. Well, another episode of us happened just a couple days ago. Ofcourse, I started the whole “this is not working out” thing but then I took it back a couple days later. It just pissed me off because when I tried to “break up” with him, he didn’t say a thing. So last night I gave him an ultimatum that if he doesn’t call or text me back I will change my phone number and there would be no way that he can reach me (other than visiting me at work, or at home, if he still has my address which I doubt). But then he texted me last night just when he was getting on my last nerves. I just can’t get enough of him you know? I love him. Blah.

Haha. Other than that, I have been seeing Tj a lot these past couple days. Tj’s a new found friend who tells me he likes me more than a friend but then I told him that I am not ready for another relationship (maybe because I still have faith in Andy) and he’s fine with us just dating and seeing how it goes for both of us. He is a good guy though. He’s got potential if you know what I mean! *wink*

Those last couple paragraphs would sound confusing to people who are not “regulars” here in my blog. Andy who I love and Tj who I am dating. Haha. Go figure it out.

Who am I kidding though? “Regulars?” Really? Haha. I will be more active, I promise. I will dedicate my Thursday night just blog hopping and making it all up to you. Thanks for *still* visiting. Love you guys!

i am about to give this whole website/blog/web design thing. UNLESS i find a design program. which i doubt because i’ve been looking since the last time i wrote here.

most of the photoshop (version 7) i’ve found were corrupted, and it just wasn’t working. the only serial key i have is for adobe photoshop 7. =(

*sighhh*

So I got a new (old) laptop from my sister. She got a new laptop that the company she works for got for her. The old one that she used to have which I have now “crashed” and couldn’t be fixed. Apparently it’s fixable cuz I was able to fix it and use it. I guess the company didn’t want to pay hundreds of dollars for some rip-off IT to fix it so they decided to just get a new laptop for my sister. I asked her boss (who used to be my drinking buddy, haha) if I could have the laptop and he said go right ahead. Woot.

I’m having a lil problem though. A couple actually. Everytime I try to install the Zune software I keep getting “The ordinal 281 can not be located in the dynamic link library” error message. Whyyyy? It sucks cuz I want to update my Zune so bad. I’ve got like old school songs in it. I never had any problem installing the software on my old ass desktop. I searched for ways to fix it (in my part) but there’s nothing I can do but call Microsoft customer service and have them help me. I was on hold for 20 minutes yesterday for an actual person but I couldn’t get through. Damn you people! Do some work for once. Anyhoo. That’s one problem. Another is I can’t find my Photoshop installation CD. I am sick of this layout. And for the longest time, I feel like doing some real graphics design again. But I don’t have any programs right now. Point me to the right direction. I do have a serial key (I have an old school *ofcourse* photoshop) for Photoshop 7.0 .. I am totally fine with it cuz I’ve gotten so used to the program. But it wouldn’t hurt to upgrade to a higher version of PS. Robbie was able to give me some serials but none of them would work. Also, I tried to download photoshop online but most of the files I was able to download finish downloading but when I try to extract it, it says file corrupted.

Help. Need help. Now. Thanks hunnies. After these problems, I should blog again on a regular basis.

I am at a point of my life where I just want to kind of settle down in a relationship with a guy I have always wanted, you know? But no matter how hard I try (even if I am not trying at all) I always end up getting confuse and messing everything up. I either try too much or I don’t try hard enough. It gets more complicated once I think about it.

I don’t want to be the type of girl that dates three different guys anymore. I know some of you if not all will say that I am young and I deserve to do this and that and I should just have fun. But you know what, I’ve had enough of fun. And believe me, I’ve gotten into so much trouble for wanting and having too much fun. I can’t elaborate it more than that because it’s my personal life we’re talking about here. That’s all I could say right now.

I am depressed, confused, exhausted, stressed out and probably everything in between those. I just want to stop everything and start off fresh.

I am impulsive when it comes to these kinds of things and usually I could say I am in control. But with my life being so crappy lately, I don’t think I have any control with my life this past couple weeks. Maybe months. Who knows.

Forgive me my fellow blog buddies. I will make it up to you all. Soon. I promise. I love you!

I’ve got nothing much to blog about but I guess I’ll just rant about whatever I can think of as I am typing.

John is very persistent that we go out again. It kinda makes me feel really good; it boosts my ego as a matter of fact. He’s making me feel that he really likes me but no matter how much I try convincing myself that eventually I will learn to like him as a friend I don’t think I will come to that point. I just don’t see us dating you know what I mean?

With Andy, we’re kinda falling apart these past few days. Talking is the only thing that we have right now and he’s kinda taking that away from us. I haven’t talked to him since last week and I’ve been trying to talk to him, like real talk-talk you know, but apparently he’s too busy for anything like that right now. He says it hurts him when I question my love for him but it hurts me not being able to talk to him the way I want to you know? This is complicated. I’m about to give up. Maybe not. I’ve said that so many times before and I don’t think I have guts to do so. He’s just so damn much to let go off you know?

Why does life treat us like this? Why can’t we have the people we want or things that we want? Why do we keep ending up with someone or something that we’re not even interested in? Why? Is that how life really is? When is life going to be fair?

I know I am young but I have been through so much shit and to be honest with you, I’m getting tired.

Sorry if I haven’t blogged about anything interesting lately. It’s just that … my life’s not interesting and/or exciting enough these past couple weeks. It sucks. I’ve got to do something about this!

Any suggestions?

Oh btw, I’ve been tagged by Sarah.

1. What was I doing 10 years ago?
I was 11, can’t really think of something that I was doing. I was being a first timer Ninang (god mother) to my nephew?

2. What are 5 things on my to-do list today?
Eat good breakfast. Finish my laundry. Hang out with Kristine. Update my Zune. Download new songs. I did 1 out 5. LOL

3. Snacks I enjoy:
Nachos with queso. Pringles. Lays original. Lots more.

4. Places I’ve lived:
I moved 3 times when I was in the Philippines, and twice here in the states.

5. Things I’d do if I were a billionaire:
Get me and my family out of debt. Get me a new car. A house (a condo). Start a business.

6. People I want to know more about:
Andy… Andy… Andy… there’s always so much to learn about him!

I think I am supposed to tag  6 people too? - Dawn, Shae (Miss Ash), Taruh, Dre, Olivia  and Rob!

I swear I didn’t mean to leave the blogging world for a second there. I was busy and there was really nothing I could do to avoid it. Work pretty much took over my life for the past month. It’s been crazy but fun at the same time. A lot of things happened from the last time I blogged (not counting the one from the other day) up to now. There was a big turn around between Andy and I, and John and I.

Let’s start off with John, we finally went out to dinner! I can definitely tell that he’s really into me but the thing is, I am not into him and I tried to be into him! It didn’t work. It sucks cuz I really thought we could do it you know? I mean we’ve both been talking about going on a date and stuff but when it finally ended I just realized that I only like him as a friend. But I am glad that it’s done and over with.

With Andy ... we finally met and didn’t like each other at all. During our date I could tell that he couldn’t wait to go home and get rid of me. I’m just joking. First of all Andy would never ever feel that way and we haven’t met yet. Haha. I wonder when that would be huh? Anyways, the big turn around with him … we’re saying I love you to each other now. Not on a regular basis but I can bravely tell him ‘Andy, I love you!‘ without having to worry. It was embarassing when it started. I sent him a message that was supposedly sent to TWITTER. It says “I love my Andy” because during the time I was twitting, I was texting with him. So I accidentally sent it to him. After that, I immediately said sorry and told him that there’s an explanation for it. And he said “Don’t worry babe, you know how much I LOVE YOU!” Then the next day we started talking about it and stuff. It’s cool. I love the feeling of it.

Uhm, that’s about it with the lovelife. As to my social life and friends, I’ve been staying local lately. I go to happy hour once in awhile and most of the time with co-workers. It’s pretty cool cuz I never thought I’d get along with them like this. I’ve always told myself to leave work AT work. But look at me now, most of my Friday nights are spent bar hopping (locally, meaning close to my house) with co-workers.

I promise (and I always break my promises!) to blog more from now on. I am also planning on staying up late tonight just to blog hop and return comments and see what you’ve all been up to. From the bottom of my heart, I really do miss you all. And you know exactly who YOU ALL are. =]

First of all, I want to apologize for neglecting whatever I have in here. And ofcourse, for neglecting you all. I admit it, I haven’t been the best blog-friend these past month, I’ve got valid reasons. But I am not in any mood to list them all down for you.

 I’ve got no time. Keep coming! Be back soon.

If you can’t tell yet, I have been pretty busy with things. I still am busy as a matter of fact. At work, I am transitioning from “the youngest girl who’s been doing the littlest things” to “the youngest girl who will be doing the biggest things” in the office. I can’t explain it more than that because it will get more complicated! I like it though. You all know how much I like trying new things and the challenge of it all. I am having a great time!

Other than being busy at work, I’ve also been busy doing house job. We are currently painting our dining room. It is so far, half done. We painted it with old rose paint, kind of darker than the usual pink and lighter than hot pink. It looks pretty decent and it surprisingly matches our green living room. We are planning on buyinig new dining room furnitures this weekend to match the whole new look just like what we did with the living room when we painted it green. I am pretty excited.

On to other things … like lovelife, haha. It’s been pretty great lately. No stable boyfriend but I went out Monday night with a good friend Luis. We live like 15 minutes away from each other but we don’t hang out that often. Monday night we met up and he brought me to this cool park that had a huge lake in the center of it and a lil old town around it with shops, coffe shops, sports bars and all that. I was surprised cuz I am always in that area but never thought there was a lil shopping center IN THE PARK! It was pretty cool. I don’t know what me and Luis are for now (he left Wednesday morning for Disney in FL with his fam) but while we were in the park, he took my cellphone and put his name in my calendar for May 30th, 8:30, that’s when he comes back from Florida. I am pretty excited.

But … Andy … I am pretty sure you all know him. That’s another story and I will leave you all in suspense for now hmkay?

John, hah, that last friend of mine that I was supposed to go out with… Apparently, everytime we try going out it seems like there’s always a problem that comes up. I don’t know. So I told him that we shouldn’t plan on “going out” anytime soon. I just feel like we’re not meant to “go out” you know? And I think I made a good decision cuz after saying that, something GREAT happened which was Luis and Andy.

Yeah, call me a two-timer .. I don’t care. And besides I don’t think I am two-timing neither one of them. Why? I am not in a committed relationship with ANYBODY. So that means I can do whatever I want. And that does not make me a slut, a whore or whatever word you want to use. Really, it doesn’t.

I will write later about Andy. It feeeeels great I promise. LOL

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